We are flying home tomorrow

Hi All, Due to all of Matt's ramblings on his post, and his constant humor and sarcasim, some of you may have missed the last part or as some have emailed to me thinking he is joking. No he is being truthful. We had our appointment at 10am today and as soon as we entered we could tell it was not right. Oksana & Vlad will not be able to be adopted until mid February. They have set us a new appointment for Feb 21st at 10am. The SDA kept our dossier as long as possible and gave us this appointment only because that was the only legal way they could keep our dossier in line and allow us to have the referal when they are available. This registration think is really out of control. I am sad, Oksana and Vlad are sad, Matt is angry, and worried about how we afford to come back and start over again in 3 weeks. We have no choice. We were told our only other option was for us to take another referal for some other children, which will not do. As part of the continued games we had to have several files of children shown to us during this appointment, and sign the books saying we do not want these children and will return for a second appointment in February. Neither Matt nor I really even looked at the children, I was too busy crying, Matt picked up one and quickly tossed it back down again. We have paid our change fees and got on the 5:35am flight to Frankfurt and then the same long layover and into Denver 3:45pm on the 28th. Matt and I will return to work for two weeks and then get back on a plane and travel back for this appointment. We have not booked this flight yet, working on that next. Valentin helped translate and explain this to Oksana who explained it to Vlad. Oksana said she will try to be OK and not disappointed. When I talked to her about an hour ago she was sounding better there with her friend Elena again whom I had to talk with again,the girls were playing around like we normally do on our conversations. She said Vlad is not good, he is very, very sad and disappointed. She assured me he does understand that we will be back. I could not call him because Oksana has a different phone carrier and calling her has used up all the phone minutes. I will call them when we are back at home. Please keep him in your prayers. Valentin told both children to stay out of school on February 23rd because we will be there with them that day. She was very happy about that part. Not sure why this is happening, God knows, one day we will too, for now it just hurts. Only a month right I can do that, as the tears began again while I am typing. I need to start packing and figuring out what to leave here. Valentin will keep any luggage that we don't need to bring back such as the donations to the orphanage from UOO and probably some of our clothing and personal items so we can lighten the load for the return trip. I am keeping the faith, and trusting because I know nothing more to do, none of this makes sense in my human heart and mind.